Kamal Hasan's Anayaa Neruppu

Well I have something nice to write about....

I read Kamal Hassan's story in Vikatan and WOW !!! It left me thinking a lot about it. It was a different dimension to a very common story.....

My first reaction was just that, this guy keeps writing something controversial and then get critisized strongly.

But this story was just out of the world. Especially when i read the verse "Naan Karpu ezhantha naal" supposed to have said by Sita, i had a tingle running in my spine....The first thought that came to my mind was what rtnem said in Amethyst .... She wanted to be Sita so that she can be married to Ram but she still can't leave her hubby as she is Sita.... what a situation...

well coming back to the story, it says about Agni's love for Sita and how, in spite of an oppurtunity he didn't take her in and how he is still sufferring the sweet pain...... Dont we too in a lot of instances? Just that we need to portray a modest figure, we refuse to live a content life, disregarding opportunities.... I think thats why the sweet pain keeps burning in our lifes just like agni... never dying!!!!!

Back to Crib

Yep!.... I am back to crib again for no reason... As per my resolution in my previous blog, i stopped looking at the white necked bird again.

Well reality did settle down on me when I least expected it. Couldn't just believe that it was me who had done it all till now. I am not even sure of my feelings but for sure was very precarious to talk anything and went on blabberring nonsense. Couldn't just believe its me in this state....

wasn't I blatant enough about what i like and what i dont? what happened to my "i dont care attitude"? I really couldn't imagine.......

I went to grand pa for guidance but still feel like a fool in dark.....

I know I should be enjoying about the trip but I am not right now. I dont want to whine and whine about things of which i have no control of, I think this confusion stage is getting me no where...... A lot of "what ifs" are hitting me like a blow on my face.....Should I continue or not? What i go to the extreme? Can i bear the repercursions? Should I be egoistic in spite of going to such an extent of "C S". Why can't I be? Let me just enjoy my trip and come back and see what happens.....

what ever it is it should be for good.... what say?

The white necked bird

Monday blues and it was my usual trip to office and surprisingly i wasn't trying to sleep. I was listening to some hindi number and then did i notice my favourite bird... the white necked one. Gliding gracefuly and it sat on the branch having no clue about the things running in my mind. I always think or rather connect to everything that happens good during that week to me having seen it. I also told Chella once that it brings me luck or good news whenever i see one.

While i was wondering what it could be this week....

I happen to talk about someone and the gossip i heard.... couldnt help but think its a good one....though very upsetting but a good one for sure.....I think it is rather a sign, a warning for me to stop thinking and doing something that i had planned.

Or is it just my optimism - that "ethuvum nallathukke" being my policy. Well atleast I have decided not to associate the poor bird with anything.......