Back to Crib

Yep!.... I am back to crib again for no reason... As per my resolution in my previous blog, i stopped looking at the white necked bird again.

Well reality did settle down on me when I least expected it. Couldn't just believe that it was me who had done it all till now. I am not even sure of my feelings but for sure was very precarious to talk anything and went on blabberring nonsense. Couldn't just believe its me in this state....

wasn't I blatant enough about what i like and what i dont? what happened to my "i dont care attitude"? I really couldn't imagine.......

I went to grand pa for guidance but still feel like a fool in dark.....

I know I should be enjoying about the trip but I am not right now. I dont want to whine and whine about things of which i have no control of, I think this confusion stage is getting me no where...... A lot of "what ifs" are hitting me like a blow on my face.....Should I continue or not? What i go to the extreme? Can i bear the repercursions? Should I be egoistic in spite of going to such an extent of "C S". Why can't I be? Let me just enjoy my trip and come back and see what happens.....

what ever it is it should be for good.... what say?